clinched fists

sometimes…i wake up in the night with fingernail impressions in the palm of my hands because i have been clinching my fists so tight in my sleep. for real.

one of my favorite pastors use to refer to “white knuckling” our lives…giving the illustration of holding on too tight as a way of controlling our lives or people or circumstances. opposed to holding loosely.. and trusting Jesus.

trying to trust Jesus when I am awake. and hoping He is present, and calming, when I am asleep.