ben’s birthday is tomorrow. i can’t believe he’s going to be three. and we’re celebrating with some friends at a park on saturday. so….do i tell him his birthday is tomorrow? and celebrate at home? and give him his presents? and then celebrate again on saturday? i think it’s confusing for a little man. same with Christmas. when all was said and done he thought the entire month of december was Christmas b/c we had so many celebrations with different family and friends. and i’m so sensitive to excess. i don’t know what the root of that is….but i just don’t like excess for little kids. so i bought ben some scissors (he LOVES to cut things) and paint for his birthday. which seemed with in the boundaries of “not excess.” then i made him a teepee. but didn’t really say it was for his birthday. then….late one night last week…greg and i decided to buy ben a trampoline. excess. darn it. but he’s going to LOVE IT! i hope. i hate the expectation (or hope) that i have for ben to love something. or love an experience. he’s three. he doesn’t value the same things i do. and he is a different person. but when i make a really good dinner. or we go somewhere i think is really fun. i ask him a million times (until i am satisfied with the level of excitment in his response) if he loves it. i need to chill. in so many ways.
happy almost birthday ben!!!